I get on my knees...

Today was a typical Monday. Getting back into the school schedule and all.

These next few weeks mom wants to focus on this Thanksgiving unit study she found online. It's pretty interesting and all, lots of writing (hip hip horray...not!) OK other than that "w" word it looks like lots of fun.

I am really praying this week about going to Excel (gds 9-12) up in Saratoga. My youth group is not very supervised and even though Excel itself is relatively closely watched and all. But mom says the last few times i've gone to Breakout (gds 6-8) I come home tired, extremly sick from not enough sleep, and depressed cause C or someone else dragged me all over after some hott guy who she just couldn't live her life without. *gag* Or I feel as though I let God down by following the crowd and not glorifying him (hey this is a CHRISTIAN retreat!)

But like mom has said over and over we have such higher standards than everyone else so It's really obvious and rubs sometimes. I feel as though i'm "perfect christian role model to be a nun" person. alright maybe not that bad, but It's hard to resist the ocean wave as it trys to suck you under its strong current.

Ah well, much ado about something I need to let rest in Gods hands.

I get on my knees
I get one my knees
there I am before the love that changes me
see I don't know how
but there's power
when I'm on my knees

Jaci Velasques
On my Knees